yes!I'm a happy girl now!
to know that there's so many true friends there for me when I'm utterly down (:
well, I'm REALLY happy! REALLY! actually being happy comes from the heart,
so if lets say you're REALLY feeling happy deep down, you're genuinely happy ^^

I have finally made up my mind about the courses which I'll be taking (:
thanks lay and kenny! for going through all the courses with me and FINALLY
I see a glimpse of hope, soon to be more hope will be ocming through, haha...

actually for DAE there's like only 3 choices you can make in each poly, yeps.
so it's quite an advantage and disadvantage, however let you guys know my current choices now so that you can wish me luck (:

Temasek Poly, I heard it's a really pretty school, at least it's much better than nyp.
haha but the distance there from my place can really kill (for your info, I stay in bishan)
however for the sake of my interest, I'll be most willing to travel ^^
My first choice will be retail management followed by financial business teachnology and
business blah blah blah engineering (the course which I dislike the most) but no choice, since it's meant to be a safe option.

Next will be Singapore Poly, big, crowded and yah very big, haha I nearly lost my way when
I went there last year but the people there are really friendly and helpful (:
I have a straight bus there yay~ so my first choice is going to be
integrated retail and events managament (a new course) and hopefully the cut of point of
this new course won't be that low, second will be Business IT- I really hope to get into e-business when I get to year 2 and lastly Property Development and Facilities Managment.
I suddenly realise that most of my courses options have such long names >< haha,
at least I get to look forward to Pizza Hut and KFC at sp!
and yes, Sp's CCA system's really good, from what I see.

Yeps, that's all I have in mind currently after 3 days of research.
I really can't wait for school to start ^^ perhaps cos I have been "school-less" for one year.

And I was clearing all my stuffs and I realised that I have sooo much stocks
left over from the flea market, I can actually leh-long them.
HAHA, well, hopefully business will prosper this coming chinese new year (:


1:43 PM

I'M SAD :((((

Read my words, everything upsets me now.

1. My 30 bucks haven't arrived, and it has been since saturday till now,
I don't even know if it's coming. It's really upsetting, I REALLY haven't recieve it at all.

2. I'm completely depressed by the fact that I can't get into business courses as planned earlier on, there's this stupid calculation of grades method which I just found out last night, to think what an idiot I am, I had one whole year to figure this out yet now :( I'm soooo sad.
Afterwhich, I was told that we have to apply through DAE which is rumored to be the system whereby all JAE students get their choices then the remaining places lay on us (DAE ppl).
All I want is to get into retail management and I'll be the happiest person in the world ever but it takes a great miracle to make this come true.
yah, as true as what many have said- find another route.
if you could personally feel the way I am now, you wouldn't say that.
you just wish to cry and cry and cry out loud, though I know it doesn't help,
that's why all the more I'm feeling much misery.
AND nobody will ever understand my feelings, my mum suggests accountancy, oh please,
not to mention accountancy, even retail management might not accept me.

this is the feeling which I hate most- feeling helpless.


7:10 PM

have you ever thought of ppl wanting to be princesses but they can never be one?
well, princesses, palace, tiaras, knights, kings, queens, fairytales.........
they don't exist ><>never will.
especially dreams too,
dreams will NEVER and DO NOT come true if
you don't work towards them.
dream dream dream.....

I was rather irritated this afternoon,
I'm not going to name anyone here.

I managed to catch wu zun on "yu le bai fen bai" just now,
(: so I'm happy!
finally gonna leave the house tomorrow and on friday too
F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!~


1:57 AM

maybe it's due to being 18, that's why my thoughts have changed alot (:
and for the better!

in the past, if anything bads happens, I'll just swear and curse HAHA XD
but now,
I'll rather stay calm and think it through though I do curse at times ^^
so beware!

These days have been packed for me,
packed with orders, I have quite a number orders coming in these days
and I'm happy!
I'm doing something I like and earns money from it ^^ actually
such a job-hobby is hard to find. I'll definitel open a shop of my own
selling ICE-CREAM in the future >< that's so random.
back to the serious clay business,
I have made a few cute stuffs today which makes me happier ^^

I'm sooo happy these few days, don't know the reason either,
perhaps the star's shining brightly on me (:
and I've learnt to be more optmistic except for my insomnia problems.

neways! I would like to thank my friends for being my friends (:
it makes sense okay!
don't worry so much kenny!
thanks PI wong , ant, ah bu neh neh, yongyong, yellowbear, loyal reader
and my irritating little cousin who calls herself ELLE ><
and lay!


2:43 AM

haven't been updating for long!
or should I say VERY long?

well! I've been rather busy these days,
busy waiting for the videos to upload on youtube :(
I can't seem to view them.
that's so upsetting!

hahas! actually after looking at the papers today,
I kinda find the picture they used is really ugly!
hees (: but well it's better than nothing.
free publicity yeps?
don't ever under-estimate the influence of the media.
that mini tiny article brought me loads of nice new customers today ^^
I'm so glad when I meet into new people rather than nasty ones.
yeps, those who think that paparazzi are after them and refuse
to share anything with their so called they-claim-we-are-their-friends
people!
you should know who am I referring to, loyal reader (:

that's all I really want to say for today,
I have been spending sleepless nights close to everyday
of this year, my eyes are worse than the china pandas ><
but at least I got to see ELVIN NG on tv today (:
though it was just close to the ending whereby he appeared
but still it's worth it (:

MY HOT FAV ARTIST list should
include Wu Zun (ahhhh!his name makes me jump up and down)
and
ELVIN NG (:
I don't follow stars BLINDLY, hahas, I open my eyes BIG and WIDE!


3:39 AM