why do people learn to cherish only after when they're so close to losing friendships?
why didn't you notice our presence when we were right beside you?
why didn't you bother to say anything until we were so hurt?
is this all what friendship means to everyone?

what the hell!


2:02 PM

=/ how many times must I tell ppl that my name's spelled as CHERYL and not CHERLY???

anyway I finally got to see that super gross quit smoking advertisement which pam mentioned the other day. It's sooo gross, and I wached it around 2 am this morning=/ it's already bad enough to get cancer from smoking, what's more all rotten lips and teeth. yucks! don't ever ever ever smoke otherwise you might end up like that lady >< which is quite disgusting.

my new QUIT SMOKING slogan will be a great hit though, haha, can consider writing in!


1:14 PM

whoa! I'm damn lucky today (:
hehes!
jeh ni's in loveeee =X

-I had my favourite jap noodles from taka,
-I had my favourite gelato ice-cream (: double chocolate with strawberry
-I bought the jap clay set that I'm been eye-ing for in kino for years- finally! it feels like cottoncandy!
-saw my favorite dress but didn't buy :( I'm too broke la!
-went to the private sales we always wanted to go hehe! but the food sucks!
-I had my favourite marks and spencer biscuits yummy!
-we went to my favourite scotts supermarket (: I just love oogling at jap stuffs!
-last but least I saw my favourite guy at the cafe today (: hehes! that's the best of all!!!

though he isn't the type to die for like what miss jeh ni said BUT
he's still my type (:


2:54 AM

There seems to be nothing I can do but appealing here and there =/
that's how unfair life is!

spent the day at town yesterday and I went to look for jeh ni at
robinsons (: she was working while I was disturbing. hehe I stood there
and talked to her for like 2 hours? when she's supposed to be working?
haha I went to there with a big bag of stuffs to pass to my customer, yay!
I earned quite a bit, enough for my shopping trip at hongkong ^^

speaking of the trip, I'm rather frustrated with my parents =/
they're always like that! especially my dad, his horrible bad temper never changes, wait till he's old then it's too late to change!

I hate it when people say how much they care and blah blah blah yet they don't really do so!


1:12 PM

I didn't know that my o levels were that bad till few days ago.
In the past, I still thought it was so-so, until like rp and tp's results were out =/
it feels as if my fate lies within business process and systems engineering.
the range mark lies within mine :( that's how sad. don't give up hope yah?
does the problem lies in me or them?

lastly, I'm going to appeal tomorrow, pleasee stopppp giving me negative news!


1:07 PM

show some respect will you? =/ otherwise I'll hate you for life.

anyway I've finally moved my blog (: yep, and not many know of this new blog, if they care, they will know eventually. I removed my tagboard too, that's cos nobody bothers to tag execpt for pamela (: thanks pam!
well, I'm not too bothered about it, just bothers me that the tagboard's so empty and isolated.

I heard news from temasek poly, my application's gone case, will be appealing on monday, hopefully! and I'd just wish I can just get into singapore poly, it's near my place (:


1:52 AM

Actually I wrote a super long entry about my new job (which I just quit after 4 days of work) but decided not to publish it, otherwise it'll dampen my mood again. I'll be in deep trouble and in for a long scolding when my in charge comes back end of this month, haha. But still I'm happy (: at least I've found my soul back yeps!

anyway few days back I went to vivo with lay the other day and saw my cousin emily ^^ haha, basically my mum and her mum had a quarrel so we couldn't spend CNY together. Yeps, but she's now a big girl! (: I bet she'll get married before me. hees~

well julin! don't be too sad alright? I believe your cousin wants you to stay happy as well, let's keep him in our prayers! Take Care!


11:08 PM

I'm disappointed in everything of my life.
I have a job which I hate to the core and I have to work tml.
I have an online business which I put in my best effort to provide the best for all customers yet getting complains.
I have a future to worry of, whether I get into the poly courses.

I seriously can't stand it anymore, not that I don't want to take in advice but I can't. I can't listen to what you guys are saying, it's so clear yet so blurred. I can't help but to feel upset yet I know I shouldn't be.
I can't think properly about my future. If I get nowhere, that's it.

I almost broke down in front of my mum just now, but now I should be fine after throughout thinkings, don't worry too much about me. I'll be fine, I know I will.


11:49 PM

Work has been terrible since 4 days ago, thanks goodness I'm off till coming monday =/ otherwise would have been so dreadful to stand there like nobody's business.
First day of work was alright, fyi I'm working at takashimaya ladies' handbags department under LESPORTSAC yeps! I started to hate work though it was just the very first day, but well, at least there was a nice colleague of mine who waited for me to knock off. Not like the aunties there, all running off when work's over.

Second day of work was the worse, my colleague who was supposed to take over my shift came slightly late, that's why I was superb duper starving during lunch time. And I realise the way takashimaya operates is damn stupid, you have to be there for morning briefing, and those so called I-Think-I'm-So-Great supervisors would start the day by giving you BLACK-FACE as if you owe them millions, and they'll start lecturing.
Sometimes I feel if they really want to be teachers, by all means, GO! but doubt their qualifications meet the requirements, HAHA~

There's one supervisor who's like in her 40-50 plus, her face is really black, darker than charcoal man, I'm serious, one day if any one of you drop by takashimaya, remember to look for her okay! look at how horrible she looks then perhaps you will feel rather lucky with your current appearances. How I wish she'll just sack me la, or maybe she can get sacked instead, at least I thought she was an old virgin left on the shelf, ha~ but surprisingly she's married with kids. what a miracle!

okay another about work is that I hate having lunch/dinner alone =/ I think that's damn pathetic, thats perhaps I'm still new there? jeh ni's facing the same situation as me too, but if I were to have break with those aunties, I'd rather not eat anything so yes, my colleague came back few minutes late after her dinner break again, which delayed my knock off, my mum actually came to visit me (: how sweet la! and jeh ni dropped by the first day too! When all the situation gets really horrible at work, it's nice to see people (I like) visiting me ^^
however, when I'm about to knock off, all the customers come flooding my counter =/ thats how irritating it gets, but nvm la, cos they don't really mean it either, the worse thing is that the 2 korean men who bought stuffs from me asked where's the tax refund counter, so I pointed to them but they WANTED me to bring them there! guess what, the stupid supervisor showed her damn black face again, my colleague told me that she's kinda unhappy that I brought the customers there>< oh please!
aren't they contradicting about their FIRST-CLASS customer service.
On my last day on work, I'll definitely scold her a bitch before leaving. or maybe I'll just come back as a customer and complain against her or maybe I'll just open a huge shopping centre and compete with taka!

Work sucks big time! so stop asking! I'm vexed enough :(
back to a place worse than hell on tuesday.


2:52 AM

I can't sleep though I'm due to wake up in like another 4 hours? which is 7.30am.
Actually these days I've been thinking alot, though yes all those shoppings
and spending time with my family and friends finally got those horrible thoughts off my mind. Now I'm back to worrying, though I may feel happy at times, but when it's back to worrying, I get so empty.
Not sure if you do have such feelings, but I just feel so worried.
Worrying about my course, my life, my future and all.
If I get into one of my choices, which choice would that be? or will I end up nowhere? if I get into the course that I dislike, what's my future going to be like? and if I stick to a course that's horrible, what am I going to do?

all these questions just leave me clueless on where and how am I going to face if problems arise. Few days ago, I was still worrying about something else and now it's another thing again. When can I put an end to all these? Hopefully everything will turn out right soon because I still have a long road ahead.

I just want to let out my feelings, so to those reading my blog, please do not worry too much about me, I'm really fine, with you guys by my side, I'll be strong and I know it (:


3:33 AM